Minggu, 28 Oktober 2018

Kurasi (dari jurnal kualitas rendah saya)



Walau tak sendiri, tapi ibarat terdampar. Terkurung, tapi oleh batas yang tak tampak. Padahal ramai, tapi tidak sepatah suarapun tak terdengar asing. Terjebak dalam arus manusia yang masuk, menetap lalu keluar menembus garis-garis yang tak tampak tadi, sedang diri sendiri terus tak berubah, bagai segunduk endapan di tengah muara yang sekalipun dibatasi gerakan tidak sekalipun melaju.

Sudah sepuluh jam kurang lebih, setengah di antaranya tidak seharusnya terjadi. Kantuk telah datang dan pergi, langit mendung beralih dari terang ke gelap-gelapan, sampai-sampai udara dalam ruang tunggu perlahan terasa berat. Aku letih melepas pasang sepatu, aku letih dengan meninggalkan kursi demi melepas ketegangan di bawah perut. Aku lelah dengan puluhan pengumuman yang satupun tidak memberi keterangan lebih lanjut. Hanya perintah implisit untuk terus menunggu, terus menunggu.

Ingin hati melakukan hal yang berbeda, sayang kepala menolak dan tubuh hanya ingin diletak.

Selasa, 10 Januari 2017

Punch Me

A list to validate that living in Japan all this time is a little bit more meaningful than it seems to be (considering how painful the last two quarters had been, how everyone else is graduating, how I’m not sure about things):
  1. I can speak Japanese, and other things – writing Japanese, reading Japanese, etc.
  2. I know some Japanese
  3. I've paid my own bills. Electricity, water, phone, everything, you name it. Quite thrilling actually to see the number showing on those small pieces of paper that appear magically in my mailbox.
  4. I pay rent every month. Just when I thought those bills are more than enough.
  5. I've cooked soup, pasta, curry, stir fry, rice, fried rice, a bunch of scrambled eggs, and stir fry. I had never chopped onion before coming to Japan, so give me some slack.
  6. I was in five different countries last year. For someone who had never been asked to show his passport for seventeen years, the last five years were quite unpredictable.
  7. I have my own cameras.
  8. And I take photos. 
  9. My English got somewhat better?
  10. I've read much more kinds of book. 
  11. I can buy clothes outside of Eid Al Fitr.
  12. My campus' computer labs got iMacs, the big one.
  13. Almost forgot that my tuition's free.
I should just shut myself up now.